Wednesday, April 25, 2012

HAPPY 5TH BIRTHDAY MIKAYLA LEIGH!!

I am going to try to start blogging again... try being the key word here.  My precious baby girl turns 5 today.  Where did the time go??  I know in high school all the adults told me it was gonna happen like this... time escaping that is... but I did not believe them.  Craziness!!  I think back to the morning of her delievery... so many emotions and thoughts that morning!!  I was scared to death.  I remember when they wheeled me down to the OR I started having a panic attack, thinking "oh my goodness... this is really about to happen... I can't have a baby".  It was a crazy, unbelievable day!!  There were so many people in the room when she was born... I don't even know all their titles... neonatologists, ob, all kinds of specialists, students... all waiting for the worst possible outcome.  Not Mike and I... we just wanted to meet our daughter!!  So many bad reports up to that point... death was a possiblity and breathing on her own would be impossible.  Well, that little bundle of joy came out... proving EVERYONE in that room wrong... except God!!  He knew exactly what was going to happen... he knew Mikayla Leigh Scheetz was going to be his miracle baby... made to prove all those doubters wrong!!  Glory be to God alone!!  Can't believe that was 5 years ago.  So much has happened in that time... we have learned so much!!  God has taught us so much about life and love through Mikayla.  If I could say one thing good about this whole experience... it is how my relationship with Christ has developed!!  I don't know where that relationship would be if I had not had Mikayla.  I have soley depended on HIM so many hours, days, minutes... without a comforter in Him I honestly don't know how I would have made it some days.  So many people around Mikayla are blessed just by seeing her do life... she has obstacles BUT she does not seem to let those things keep her from being a typical 5 year old.  If we could all have the faith of a child.  She believes God CAN and WILL heal her legs and she will walk on this earth.  Lately she has been talking to God and about God doing just that... she tells Him... "God, I know you will make my legs all better and make them walk"... "I believe it".  The cool thing about her... there is NO doubt!!!  It is just a matter of God's timing!!  She does tell him to make them better in a hurry!!
I have people ask me sometimes, how I do it or they don't know how I do it.  I don't really know how to respond at times... I am just doing life... what other choice do I have??  It is so hard some days but I cannot let this stop us or our life.  It would be so easy to keep her in a bubble, in the safety of our home every single day but I can't.  Our purpose in life, together, is to give people around us hope and we can't do that inside these four walls.  God has such an ENORMOUS plan for Mikayla's life... sometimes it's a little overwhelming that He chose me to be the mom of such an incredible little girl who is going to grow up to be such an unstoppable woman of God!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY INCREDIBLE MIRACLE OF A BLESSING!!  We love you so much!!